Winter Solstice: The Pause at the Bottom of the Breath

Winter Solstice: The Pause at the Bottom of the Breath

Winter Solstice: The Pause at the Bottom of the Breath

by Amy Martin (c)   12.21.12

 

Twenty-one years ago. Twenty-one years ago, I looked in, I looked into water so deep it lost light – the transparent clarity of darkness.

Twenty-one years ago, I fell in. I fell into that infinite well of night, the darkness at the center of the soul – faith that is comfortable with doubt.

Twenty-one years ago, I let go, I let go of the stories that evolved into myths, the memories and beliefs that contorted to fit the myth, the ties built on lies.

There stripped naked to my soul on that Winter Solstice day, the levee broken, the flotsam and jetsam of my life all around me, I descended into deep water.

Until at the pause at the bottom of the breath, the instant that holds pure potential, I surrendered the struggle, submitted the doubt, and found truth.

Áve María, grátia pléna, grateful am I to that which receives.

In pulsating darkness, I breathed of womb water and yearned for Lux mundi, surfacing in the opening between, the yoni revealed.

Winter Solstice asks that we let go of needing to know, to have faith in the absence of belief, to find the core, the spiritual being in the human body.

This moment of great turning, the slippery line between the light and dark halves of the yin-yang symbol, is happening now on this Winter Solstice day. This is the moment of the Tao.

Tonight, this longest night, step into the stillness. Release into darkness all expectation and attachment to outcome. Be in the void, be in faith.

In the fertile darkness, plant the seed of a renewed human being. Breathe the awareness, be present, be ready to be reborn.

For on this darkest of nights, there is but one word, one answer: yes.

 

Amy Martin

Amy Martin is the North Texas Wild at GreenSourceDFW and author of Itchy Business: How to Treat the Poison Ivy and Poison Oak Rash. More info at http://itchy.biz/. Most frequently she was the senior comedy critic for TheaterJones, The Aging Hippie columnist for Senior Voice, and the Taoist panel member of the Texas Faith blog of The Dallas Morning News. A journalist for over 40 years, she wrote for Dallas Observer, Dallas Times Herald, Dallas Morning News, and D magazine, and was contributing editor and columnist for Garbage magazine. She was known by many in North Texas as the Moonlady for her alternative newservice of 15 years, Moonlady News, and served as creator/producer/promoter of the acclaimed Winter and Summer SolstiCelebrations for 20 years. 

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